While waiting for a friend at the central canteen this evening, I saw the students passing by with different facial expression. And with the cool breeze blowing around touching my face, I, then started to think about everything that has happened to myself so far. Once, I was down, depressed, feeling lost, seeing only bad side of life. However, after thinking for a while, I suddenly realized that life wasn’t as bad as I thought. There is a lot more to learn and to enjoy. Therefore, I appreciate all kinds of people who came into my life. Hurt me or cheered me, you all have done a very good job and I will never forget you.
Winter
Today has been so cold. People said winter has come and it will be cold and even colder from today on.
What am I going to do? Cycling back tonight, I could feel my hands almost gone frozen; it was damn cold. 
I am not ready yet, winter.
:-(
I felt so much better after talking to you every time, although it is just a simple conversation that simple friends have. However, I don’t know y i feel that way because you don’t say you miss me, love me, think of me, and want to see me anymore. Anyhow, I still feel good just to see your word HI. It’s not easy to always stay up late and wait for your chat message, but I do it. While waiting, I always go through our old emails. You might leave them aside, and never even give a glance at them, but they still sound good to me and make me smile feeling your care at that time.
I know they say, we shouldn’t live in the past for we can never find our real future, but I still do.
If only you realized how much i think of you at this moment. People come and go, but I still think of you. Most of our friends have found their happiness one by one, it’s obviously written on their faces how happy they are. I can’t feel that way for you never see me as the same person again. By any chance, have you ever thought of me? I have no courage to get the answer at all…that’s the worst part.
I know it doesn’t make sense, but I still feel for you.
First Summer Vacation
Summer Vacation has finally taken its place here in Japan. I have these whole two months for something or nothing. August is for preparation for the Master Entrance Exam which will happen in the very early two days of September. End of September is for moving house. These schedules somehow tight me hard in the place. Do you how it feels like to have millions thoughts in mind and not knowing what to do or where to start first. I am in this situation right now. I need to be cheered up…!!!
You make it easier when life gets hard!!!
I have been away from my own world for too long. A lot has happened so far… and life doesn’t stay still. I am in Japan now. I was eager to be here earlier this year and even cried thinking if I don’t get it. Now that I am here, so what? I am still me but far away from my family. The worst happened when I am not home with my mother. I wish I could do a lot of things. I am always looking forward to the future and forget to enjoy every moment along the way. When it’s too much, I start thinking of giving up. Sometimes, I even wake up in the morning asking myself why I am here and wondering how I get through life in a foreign place. At the end, I found only one answer and it’s very simple: I am here for my Mother. I remember her every word. ” Nothing is impossible, daughter. Don’t easily get panic cos every problem has its own way out. You just need to sit down, stay calm, and you’ll find it.” This two-year Life will make you stand out strong. All you need to do is to believe in yourself.
Thanks for everything you have done for me, mother. I am very safe under your wings of love. Please get well soon, dear mother. I am wishing you all the best from my heart.
P.S. I LOVE YOU!
L-Diary – Part 2 ( The End)
The first page of this love book has been turned over only to find the ending on the next page. There are times in life which we prefer not to see. However, the truth never changes; we can lie the world but not ourself. It’s better to live our lives with the truth even it hurts. Accepting the fact that there are some people who really live in a different world and we can’t break the wall to get to them. It’s too much for life.
L-Diary – Part 1
Seeing the night sky, the stars, the moon, the plane flying high reminds me of someone whom i, indeed, can’t get over. Does that sound funny? I don’t wanna to think about him, but most of the time i do. I really treasure the moments we talk although they are short ones. I know i am not an important person in your heart anymore, but it hurts knowing this. Sorry dear, I was too young to see you were always there for me.
P.S. I Love You!
The Beach
We – IDP and ACE staff- went on the second so-called Staff Building Trip to Sihanouk Ville last week with three buses. There were a hell lot of people more than expected. Many pictures have been posted on Facebook, so I decided to post mine here.
Me and ma sis, Celina”
It’s all coming back to me now
It is almost 5:30pm and it’s raining heavily at the moment. I am feeling strange…don’t know y. I felt it when I was teaching this afternoon. I knew I was thinking of someone, some beautiful memories. I should have known it was too late to miss that someone but I just couldn’t help, sometimes. It’s all coming back to me now and again. Well…it soon will pass for I have learned not to want thing when I really need it the most but knowing that I can’t have it and this time is no different either.
Happy reading!!!
I’m back with News
I have been away from blogging for a little while as a result of my workload. I have just been given a new class to teach, which is Millitary class. Don’t be surprised cos I don’t really teach the soldiers but people who work in the Ministry of Interior, Prime Minister’s Office, and those sponsored by Australian Embassy. Honestly, when I first learned about this news, I was just like…Wow!!! Part of me was excited while the other was nervous. It is pretty new to me, both the book and students. The book…agh…damn it for it’s all about military term. Can you imagine me standing in front of those students telling them about the news happening around the world once I have never cared knowing them at all. Anyway, take while it comes for we never know how much it will benefit us. Everything has its own good and bad. Therefore, I said yes to this class…hehehhe
